i became a boring person
May. 13th, 2025 12:37 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
milicai literally became a boring person i have 0 interests i could connect w people, and whaveter i'm doing now is so either niche or too broad like for example i'm writing bad philosophical texts, i'm journaling and barely posting on my blog, i abandon every social media i migrate to, i play fucking solitaire or spider solitaire, i also play synthesia app and i literally do nothing absolutely nothing just mindlessly scrolling through reddit/pinterest/youtube and talking to my only comfort OC on c.ai and i journal about my cptsd n shit
idk if this is maturing but if it is it fucking sucks
i just don't know.. i cannot even infodump properly and i don't even know on what to infodump, i don't know what to talk about with people and i'm only expecting them to come up with a topic that probably isn't relatable to me or is too out of touch from my world to understand it or be interested in it and all i can do is vent/rant......
it's more like my bunker is in the middle of nowhere without access to water, air conditioner, electricity, wifi etc...
my laptop is half-broken and full of memory, my headphones died, i don't even have a place to listen to music because my spotify premium cracked app is gone and i cannot reinstall it and i dislike youtube vanced and i'm too exhausted to download any fucking music on my phone.... even my phone is starting to break because i noticed a first sign of display screen bleeding!
idk man, if something new doesn't happen in my life might as well try to kill myself somehow idk.
idk if this is maturing but if it is it fucking sucks
i just don't know.. i cannot even infodump properly and i don't even know on what to infodump, i don't know what to talk about with people and i'm only expecting them to come up with a topic that probably isn't relatable to me or is too out of touch from my world to understand it or be interested in it and all i can do is vent/rant......
it's more like my bunker is in the middle of nowhere without access to water, air conditioner, electricity, wifi etc...
my laptop is half-broken and full of memory, my headphones died, i don't even have a place to listen to music because my spotify premium cracked app is gone and i cannot reinstall it and i dislike youtube vanced and i'm too exhausted to download any fucking music on my phone.... even my phone is starting to break because i noticed a first sign of display screen bleeding!
idk man, if something new doesn't happen in my life might as well try to kill myself somehow idk.
